Monday, October 25, 2010

New Beginnings

I love how no matter how much we think we know we learn more each day. I must admit this year has been a hard one. The hardest yet. I felt things i have never felt before and though i wish to never go through it again i'm glad i did and have now risen above it. I mustn't live in the past but continue on in the future. I'm letting go of things i have been squeezing in my palms. and know that once that release is completed i will have a new found, fresh freedom at my feet. It's perfect timing for this new season of my life. I am done with Bible College and now the Lord has spoken to me about going back to Amsterdam, in January, to work with the Lighthouse ministry. It's coming so fast and i don't feel prepared but i do know what i heard and must obey dispite my circumstances. The Lord has promised to provide for me in everything that i need, that is NEED not WANT. Two totally different things. All odds are against Him, but i know that God will come through, like He always does. For instance I am completely broke right now. I can't find a job, and if i do why would i get a job only to quit in a few months? But this is where my path led me so i'm trusting the Lord. If it was Him who told me to go then He will also provide a way. This morning my tire went flat and although i want to just break down into tears i see it as an opportunity to watch God provide and take care of me. If He can take care of me in the small things then of course He will in the big things. So i'm learning to fully surrender to Him. in ALL things. Being that I am a person who depends only on myself i am in for a rough, but inncredible and awakening ride.